let lemons be angry

I've been having action-packed dreams, the kind that i pay to watch in cinemas. It all started with that mystery/murder/thriller dream about the serial killer who killed me in the end (how will i face him next year without shivers?). Then was that world war 2 dream where i hid under a stage for four years until the US came with victory, and most recently, the one about a muslim war where i had to shoot a schoolmate. That was the scariest one. But overall, more entertaining than many movies out there, if not scarier because they happened to me personally.

I had a wonderful long day with ashley, spent sitting around in different places eating and talking about everything. Met jan yesterday for a late lunch and the girl was the same, and uncannily wearing a t-shirt with the word "Stress", which is her all over. I'm listening to "Crazy little thing called love" by queen. Didn't know they did it too. It's been a day of long journeys, giving me plenty of time to think about this year and what each month brought. So here's the year in brief.
jan: got used to being the only mg girl in a strange new place, left rainman out in the cold everyday, let raffles try to rafflise me. african children's choir and prossy. small eugene asking stupid questions.
feb: thailand for valentine's day. grew comfortable in my routine. the actor played a role. hockey tryouts. horror-filled mornings and misadventures. rumours.
march: chocolates. o-level results. wore the green skirt. met the 2nd intakers. deepened friendships with my classmates.
april: "the best month" while everyone else said it was the worst. closed one chapter, opened another. wondered a lot.
may: specs gal breaks, luxurious long lunches, skipped classes, left tutorials undone, skipped volleyball. hot days and glowing sunsets. sculpture. serendipity.
june: japan, learnt that perfect memories can't be recreated. stacks of history readings, didn't get much in my head. 4a1 sleepover. icky singaporean 10-yr-olds. art club cip.
july: cts. ifg--floorball, c, rock climbing, hat-making for minli. busiest month.
august: national day relay, first medal in my life as compared to manda's 100th. sad conversations. rachel starts to like joey.
sep: learnt i can't take care of myself even for one night. laughed and lied in my face. the stars dissolved. started studying history the right way. lived on my white couch. travelled to the airport at midnight, alone. stella was leaving.
oct: parents' anniversary, bong's birthday, paki's birthday. promos. some success, some planned failure. not knowing what to make of my life, of my future anymore.
nov: celebration, goodbyes.