let lemons be angry

The GGs. Despite what the rest of them say, i think we look nice with red eyes. I never had a real group of friends in church until this year. There is no group of girls that acts more bimbotic and superficial than this group. I say that with much love and affection, because that only shows how comfortable we are with each other to demean and accept ourselves so. And we're only pretending, okay.



I have the privilege of making new year's resolutions on my birthday, like a mega reflection of the year and my growth rolled into one. 2005 was packed so tightly that i felt the year ended too late. One more event and i wouldn't remember it. For what the high times and low times were worth, these are the things i've learnt:

-that haagen dazs ice cream really is the "finest", and why

-that malays are the friendliest people

-that topman has nice tanks and shades

-that indifference is the worst feeling

-that the flea market circle in singapore is curiously small

-that i come across to some as dao, high-maintenance, and a smoker

-that i'm actually just a lonely busy girl who wants a laugh and a helping hand

-that i have sensitive skin

-that God of the Old Testament is not about rules and punishments, but about grace

-that if given the chance, anybody will talk

-how to pour water without missing the cup

-how to talk to hundreds of strangers a day

-how to install hanging blinds from the ceiling

-how to drive a manual car, albeit dangerously

-how to get used to cigarette smoke

-how to manage finances independently

-how to design, produce, mail and fax publicity material

-how to write invoices

-how to survive on four hours of sleep a night

-how to draw foreshortened limbs and portraits

-how to negotiate with my parents

-how to cook and cater for gourmets

-how to perfect the minah eyeliner

-how to mediate between kids and adults

-how to make trees

-how to edit videos

-how to design and print wedding paraphenelia

-how to stand my ground against strong elder women without offending them

-how to look past the events in my life and see only the God who orchestrates them because He is constantly fighting for my love

First day of semester 2, and i was rushing out the door muttering class resolutions such as "i will actually complete my assignments." But kc yeoh has a way of destroying my fighting spirit. Already i'm leaving his work to be done in two weeks' time. The nice thing about this first day was having waffles and ice cream at can2 for the first time, with very pleasant friends and simple things to laugh about.

And despite my early cynicism, i do believe now that a new year brings about a new start, with an infinite number of people to meet and things to happen. It's the "new year" mindset. Everybody is looking to do something daring and drastic. Like me: oasis, here i come.