let lemons be angry

So i leave tomorrow morning.

If i can condense this month into one main lesson, it's that I am all alone. Not a member of this or a subscriber of that. And tomorrow i will take a cab to the airport alone, as if symbollically. I don't think i have ever lived this way: understanding that i am a whole being with or without the people who support me.

I still need people. But this month has been about having to make do without the people i made part of my personality. Friends, cell, one parent, then two. Nobody could fight my battles for me, not when i needed help the most. The only one who can be there for me is the only person i can't see.

This is it, fluffing up the wings, jumping out of the nest.