let lemons be angry

"Why must you love Him just because He loves you?" That is true. You don't have to. Many people don't.

This has been the longest week. Monday by the lake in the dark, understanding that no talk is useful without prayer. Tuesday and Wednesday were busy days; i always think Wednesdays will never end. Thursday, and I found myself in the airport, the only place where I ever feel completely myself and completely alone. Then there was the train ride with the disillusioned insurance agent, and Breakthrough Friday which I don't think any of us will ever forget.

Today i wandered through more biennale exhibits with half of the Duo, and it all felt like a daydream, a humid inhale and exhale of unreal things. Nowadays it seems that everything is unreal, for that matter. Virtual. I know there's something I will find by the end of these 40 days or more, and so I wait.

The one thing I want to do is not wait. I've never been a very patient person. But I'll wait as long as it takes.