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And why do I really want a $40 plush toy dangling from my bag,
Or the $16 dolls gracing my bookshelves instead of books
My small fortune displayed as what I got in life instead of a car and going-out money
And why do I still want to make stickers for laptops
And gacha keychains for my non-existent clientele
Why, oh why, do I queue for Tiktok-viral keychain makeup
Or think about the sneakers of 2025

Instead of the things that mean anything to me
Like the children I used to cry for after camp
And the material I studied to counsel youths
Or Marilao and its floods
Or the difficulty and joys of raising a special needs child
And what about the real job I have

So many deadly serious things are happening
So much so that I just want to drown myself in hobbies