Thursday, March 11, 2004

These two days have been good. They have been atypical schooldays. The kind that make you forget what day of the week it is. I blueslipped at ten and slept until one, had a sandwich and then slept again till four. I could have slept on but instead i went to meet bong (at last!) for juicy beijing dumplings. There's nothing juicier than a beijing dumpling, save for the shanghai dumpling, which is bigger. Oh dumplings. Laoshi's face was beaming when i told her i would continue to take chinese. She was thanking me and laughing and signing my blue slip. I kind of refuse to do my work. I shall blame my tired head for that. I want to start making t-shirt designs, get them printed--this after hearing bong's story about "planar". It's not a bad idea, now if i could only find the time. I feel as if i'm living an extravagant life, one of jade green curry and rocky road ice cream and issey and dumplings and pink earrings and magazines and (hoo boy) no work. I don't like feeling depressed. I like this feeling, one of acceptance and restedness. Please God let me have this joy everyday. Nothing's perfect but i'm happy.
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It's funny that i should draw my life lessons and inspiration from Lord of the Rings.
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I have all these little funny stories and sudden thoughts, but how strange. I haven't been keeping them in a bag for when you come around. Here's where i decide if i should feel sad about that. Oh well. It wasn't completely natural anyway.
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Not DW anymore. I stared out at the field seeing them with the eyes at the back of my head and decided that i wouldn't think of DW anymore. The last time i remember doing that mental choice of paths was in p6, when the DW of then said i looked ugly when i laughed. (whatever.) I can live without being devastated, i know so. After this decision, i'll be able to breathe easier at certain hours. Besides, i put myself in the right places, i said the right things, but they didn't help did they. This is one knot that's cut, snipsnip.

word of the moment: disenchantment
song of the moment: back in black, ac/dc

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