let lemons be angry

There've been only a few times that I've been this happy. One clear moment I remember is sitting alone waiting for the 200 bus, halfway through the month-long turt training. Nothing was happening, I was swinging my legs, my songsheet file was sticking out of my bag, I was humming some lame song. Happiness was just there and didn't require an explanation.

Today's similar Perfect Day will be very boring if I describe it. Cos it was the culmination of a few happy months, with a few months' worth of heart-delighting things such as:

-taking on a hundred roles for crusade foc, but seeing God stretch me
-that early morning talk at the hall 13 bus stop with the fog over the road and the air so cold
-that music-less worship session at Gen 12 thanksgiving
-mademoiselle blanche and I all set to rendezvous, and those wonderful words in that wonderful email
-"school" consisting of painting all day
-crispy waffles and gobbled-down corn
-my beloved cousin being in ntu
-my new hair taking over my life
-singing Disney songs out at sea
-talking by the river after festival of praise, with 7-11 supper and lots to say
-playing "dancing queen" for a bunch of very still, very silent old ladies
-hansel's surprise birthday party and jae being late; taking the long way back and ending up at marsiling, of all forsaken places (stupid marvin)
-suddenly having about 50 new friends. or more
-sheila and manda visiting me in school
-doing things the me of last semester would never have done, such as playing icebreakers, playing catching, doing surveys at cca fair, buying a shuttlecock tanktop, and having a schedule book at long last
-sheraton's steak set on daddy's birthday
-actually compiling an event list like this. When do i ever do things like this?

There have been the lessons, and the nights I doubt myself and need to talk to someone, and of course there still are disappointments. But every once in a while you get a day like this one, with no dark cloud. If I could set up an altar with stones and sacrifice something to God right now like the thankful people used to do, I would.