Revelation

Yes, we are to be good stewards. Yes, we are to care for the poor and marginalized. Yet, we only do all of this right once we know who we are doing it all through and for.

Creating this new work is the hardest thing I have ever done. There is no brief, no desired outcome. Just an urge and two hands. 

The piece of criticism that struck me the most during critique was this: to make a nest the way a bird would, without thinking about Art.

Art is a very deceptive thing. Now I have to learn to represent without making something to represent something. I have to create metaphors without trying to replicate. I cannot do anymore, I can only be.

Contemporary art is an even more slippery thing. It thinks it permits everything, yet it strongly rejects everything that is not within the confines of critical trend.

And at the end of two days of thinking, not doing, I have come to this new revelation. That I cannot even think about the hurting children without first thinking about Who I am doing it for. It is not my voice that matters, but the voice who first called me to do this work with them. This explains everything.  I have lost my voice--as another critic put it, I have 'no understanding of the issue'--because I have lost touch with The Voice. I am a phony philanthropist, as long as I am not working alongside the One who truly loves the children.