let lemons be angry

I don't know if i can go as far as you go. Why do i feel that more and more? Am i becoming a person who should have belonged to another family right from the start? Would i have been nearer to where you are that way? And looking forward now. If i follow this path, will you not know me anymore? There the mould is, but if i put in all my effort trying to fit into it, i might just look up to see your disinterested face anyway. Then we all lose. I don't want to be the superficial daughter who was caught up in the charms of the materialistic world. And i know i'm not--i do everything because God has set them before me. Then why do i feel like i'm slipping downwards, away from a closing gate of a place i was once warm and safe in?