let lemons be angry

Looking forward to the simple life. I have been translating the sound of camera obscura into my daily life. My busrides are heartbreaking and happy, and things are clear. I went to baybeats by myself and could see the sea, the lights and the people. I don't know if I've ever really seen baybeats all the times I was there before. Of course I ran into people there though. But I won't forget what it felt like to sit in the arena with no plans and nobody I was waiting for.

I feel a mad rush of things hurling themselves at me, like a Futurist poem. But by God's grace i am just sitting still and letting them come. I am a gungfu master who can close my eyes and reach out my hand slowly and deflect them one by one. CZ couldn't grasp my attitude about work. "Why are you so sian about work?" But I'm not. "Why do you look so calm?" Cos I am. "Why?" That's a good one. I rested my head on the back of my chair and wondered.